.. so my name starts in J n' ends with L i've been alive for 18years now. i used to utter predilections onto various things, such as star-gazing, reading books, researching, editing videos n' photos, poetry/ writing, reading sheets n' playing guitar, photographing, listening musics, n' doing petite gymnastics for the last few months (when i'm feeling depress, desolated n' deprecated, i do alot of it), i'm pretty much addicted with ballet too even i can't dance. i have food-fixation (cakes, bbq's n' so on depends on colours-- which better known as "my spouse #2"), i'm a voracious reader, yes i'm hungry for books, reading guitar sheets every winter is one of my habit n' so i got my guitar already, i never forget to lend every 4hrs of my life a day just to play it. i hath LSS-- i'm inlove with musics; like most of u i used to stuck along my ipod all night & play my favourite songs over n' over again. i inclined watching whimsical splendiferous movies, neither fantasy; mystery n' horrors genre. hence, collectibles are dvd's n' books. phone calls/ telephone conversations still terrify me. yes i'm suffering with asperger's syndrome n' a slight schizophrenia i'm fond staring at people walking around while guessing their gestures at the same time. i'm not an ice breaker that's why i never lean a little of my spit to someone i don't know at all. i disliked mosh pits 'cuz i resent crowded places the most, particularly when i saw clusters of impudent people there; i don't expose myself indeed. i prefer morelike into cozy places for example, parks n' some other places like that, i satisfy myself watching those falling leaves, alone-- it's a kind of relief. i heart the way, the wind puffs cold to my skin particularly when it's winter. i like bubbles, sparkles-- loves fireworks during december too, likewise when people do detonate firecrackers everywhere. i'm feeling mirthful seeing dandelions anywhere, i could whisper hidden wishes-- n' anyhow dreaming WHAT IF someday these wishes will be granted. best moments of my life would be.. watching dark night skies, i could count the colours of the blinking stars above me. i love gazing at night lights no doubt-- i like vivid colours, blue is my bet n' so my heart pounds when azure clouds are there, as well as cerulean pristine ocean n' for sure u can simply mock with these little things but they are such notable moments to me. somewhat, i favourited tiny drops of every raindrops fell down on my palm, they are cute-- n' there must be rainbows after the rain; it somehow reminds me of such hefty circumstances that once came to me, taught me that it ain't possible to fix my errors though just few of 'em, even we've stumbled multiple times, we can still rule our own selves into right path. marvelous footprints..... footprints in the sand is fabulous, i learnt so much things from this. i could probably compare it to people too, they come easily n' relinquish briefly; u wanna retain 'em, but indignantly not-- 'cuz time holding u itself. whilst blank paper n' pencil imprinted me that i am able to choose people i prefer to remain n' rub out those few whom don't deserve me at all. wrinkled papers resembled broken relationships from flawless into tangled, forasmuch as broken promises, broken trusts, broken oaths-- broken words = WASTED. i don't know what remarkable things would come next, according to the poem i wrote.. life is filled with mysteries, so yah for sure. i'm capricorn n' i'm not surprised for not showing any willingness to meddle oneself. i do spend cents without being meanness, somewhat remains self-centered but not excessively, likes reliable-n-fantasies n' dislikes ridicules, wild schemes n' opportunists. i guess the swings of my mood deserved the adjective based on my name, 'capricious'. i'm not the kind of girl who wears heart on the sleeve, i'm wary around people i don't know very well. pessimistic, miserly n' grudging are my dark sides; so i'm 100% percent sure for these why people don't like me, method for this would be "get rid of it". i don't dance but i speak carelessly to my own beat (hell yah i march to my own beat), i know i don't always spoke right thing at the right time or speak them up when i should, however i've sorted them all afterwards n' badly executes art of rue. my friends vaguely knew me, i call spade 'a spade' & when i see someone behaving like an idiot, i tell them whether it's pleasant or not. i'd ever run from a delusional reality, when i determined that things are too awkward to figure out, when things are too grieve to resolve, true lies sometimes reside in which people could set their selves free. ever-so-often i undertake to conceal myself in a sightless light from being wounded, anyone couldn't presume me closely, well metaphorically .. i think i can compare me to a moon. as you most already know what kind of person i was /aren't able to tell, n' for those who doesn't -talk to my mirror then. i love my friends like music, i love him more as how i'm obsessed to my food fixations, n' i love my family like i how i value my habit. i love 'em all, like i cannot live without them. * for my finale outburst, i dreamed to wander around the globe. i wanna go greece for their architectures, sculptures/ statuette, parthenon temple; italy & france for their languages -- n' of course somehow, i preceded n' aspired to be an astronomer one day, this is what i dream on since i was a child, my point of view-- d r e a m in o r d e r to b e c o m e. -- waiting ... waiting for someone to come